I've been doing a lot of quiet introspection on myself today. I have been thinking about my weaknesses and strengths. Today has been all about acknowledging my weaknesses and recognizing my strengths.
One of my thoughts turned towards a scene from the end of the movie : the Never-ending Story. The scene begins with Atreyu looking for Falcor on an island as the Nothing attacked them. He meets up with the huge stone giant, Rock Biter that appeared at the beginning of the film. The giant was saddened by loss of his traveling companions. His line goes something like : "Look at these hands. Such strong hands..." He was lamenting that he couldn't save his friends. That he wasn't strong enough to hold onto them. As a kid, I was always sad when I watched this scene. Today, It makes me dwell on the notion that I am not strong enough. I often get like that when I also watch movies/TV shows like He-Man or Man of Steel. That I would never be THAT strong. I'll never be as strong as Superman or the Rock Biter or even He-Man. This lamenting and dwelling on the want for extraordinary strength is a fault of mine, a weakness. Or at the very least, it is a perceived problem/weakness.
Acknowledging weakness is the first thing you can do in facing your problems. You plant your feet and face them. You don't turn away. You don't ignore them. And just by acknowledging that they are there is a very potent thing. The next thing is doing something about them. I have many faults/weaknesses: I'm lazy. I run away from/not think about big decisions. I dwell too much in my past. I have doubts about almost everything. I constantly dwell on how unsure I am. That's just a few.
All through today I have been soul searching my way through these weaknesses. I am finding many ways to deal....to do something about them. And just by knowing they are within in me and that I have the power to DO something about them is a potent thing.
When I turn my thoughts to strength or the strengths in myself. I know I don't need to be as strong as He-Man to do these great things. Looking over the past few years that I have lived through, I KNOW that I have some sort of extraordinary strength in me because I know I couldn't have gotten through those years without the strength within me. I persevered through. I persisted. The power was always there. I just never saw it then. With quiet contemplation and with learned wisdom, I can finally see the energies that pervaded my life.
That's one weakness or problem down....more to go....
I thank the universe for Odin, Thor, Freya, Jesus, Heimdall, my Mother, my ancestors, and even Loki. Hail and Thank you to all those energies in my life!
